Combating the stigmas

Hallo fellas long time no see and yes welcome backk !!!!

 My superlil bro bad bad but nice

Tri maskenthir in sachur family

Graduation is no more than glimpse of happines.

right after the mc close the graduation ceremony, congratulation

you are +62 jobless. 

from the very first I have no worries about job because I have secure it once, in East Kalimantan, Forest Company. kind a company binding scholarship. But tru many options, offer and considerations. I, err we decided to propose a cancel in the MoU. Pursuing the dream that I wanted to, to be researcher and lecturer in Gadjah Mada University. To gain the position menas that I have to deal with universities, scholarships, and stuffs early, not as planned but okay, lets do this thoooo

Indonesian parents, almost all of them (this is the stigma) want to their children having job, high salary, secured living and guaranteed. Civil servants, yes the dream that mostly parent want their children get into. Choosing this way means that I am against it, the lecturer have long time waiting, some process unpaid, letting to do anything that the head lecturer want us to some of their jobs and stuffs. the worst, it is uncertain, you have to combat the other candidates! but for me it is terribly fun!

Mom doctrinate me how precious State Accounting School is, people said the brightest future for Indonesians children is to enter the University. competing with almost thousands student all around Indonesia. a straight couple years diploma, under the supervision of Ministry of Finance, of course highest salary level (maybe) among the ministries, and yea, who else doubt?

But unfortunately, I meet biology which my favourite subject and I unconciously neglect the doctrine and get along with passion that I wanted to pursue. so in the end I didnt even try the selection. wkwkwk

The 14 yeats story of me and my bro are a little bit heart breaking since our track record poorly same, my bro is a bad, rebel, music loving boy and hate rules, yet friend loving boy. famous with his rebels in schools, and my mum just very unsatisfied with the track. Just not like me wkwkwkw. and this year, he is the ace, after years of tears and effort. My bad boy bro, passed all the exams, and start this week, he is a student in State Accounting School, Tax Major, for straight 3 years and directly maybe youngest and wealthiest civil servant in the family. the happiness of my mum cant be handled, super happy, more than mine when I stepped in my campus (sorry for comparing).

Super hard to combat the stigma of people against me and brother. I, a student, uncertain, keep asked by pa about the wages but unluckily i havent any, waiting 2 more years to pursue another degree, yet looking for scholarship which is also uncertain, yes yes, super uncertain. as addition I cant pursue LPDP to my fav univ cz its unavailable. but my brother has no doubt, the super brightest boy, shining in family. 

shine 

super shine

like philip 120 wat not but me 1/2 watt

that is bad to compare myself with my bro, cant but surrounds will keep doing that even my mum and dad done that. 

maybe many dream and all the processes is a burden to my family, but i still belief that effort, dream, and prayer are in line, education and studies that make people reasonable. 

IT IS SUPER SUCKSSSS WKWKWKWKWK

SORRYYYYYY TO SPIL IT OUTT IN THIS BLOGG CUZZZ BEING STUCT IN SEVERAL WEEK AFTER GRADUATION, JOBLESS, OUT OF THE DORM IS REALLY PAINFUL, NOT USED TO BE LIKE THISSSS.

Hoping the certainilty will be answered for very soon. and I want to take back all of my activities!

let God answer my question and hoping have some support around me :)

and have a very good career for all of you, waiting and doing nothing is painful, but being impatient also part of failure, for all of my friend, stay productive and enrich yourslef!

do not ever compare yourself to other and stay still, even the beloved person compare you to the relatives try to survive, 

All you can have is faith, yourself and Allah SWT