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"Expectations" is a really painful companion : part 3

Here I met my light, a friend that I put my heart into for long time after we did our community service program in 2018. Her name is Fitri Lestari. Simple, yet strong, woman that I admire. I decide to be with her, and I wouldnt playing around anymore, means that this girl is my forever companion. When I told my mom about this, she told me that if you love her, then go. Ah, what a relief. 



I spend my day charmed by her beauty, patience, and fights. I know that this girl is really strong. I feel that I cannot see beauty in any other girls. Sometimes my closest one kinda dont understand what I went through as academia in UGM, you should know that  UGM feodalism still really strong, and I feel that I didnt get any benefit here (for the most part), unless the passed away Dr Wiyono told me to continue his legacy, I wont be here fking god swear. When your agility underpaid and your potential is buried down, I had feeling that private companies work better on me sometimes. When my expectation is way too high, they smashed me down hard there.

Back to my angel, Fitri support me in the most part, go through my dream, my goals, and we had a pretty good time together anyway. I dont care if you guys call me bucin, as long as I am with her, I am cool. 

Telling our good time together for the last three years, I think I dont want to, since everyone will get envy on this, let me keep it for myself and Fitri :)

Sometimes, I am sick of expecting something,  I am done for many people expect to me, I am kinda tired of this and will lived a live that I planned. 

But we all know, sometimes things are meant to be fights and insisted, sometimes a sacrifice need to be done and again shit happened sometimes.

Fitri is a whole different chapter in the blog, and should not be placed in the painful post too, right my love?

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